preparing for my one-day return back to work. preparing means i try to do everything i possibly can to suppress the fact that i have to eventually leave for work and become that version of myself. it will be okay, though. i just really enjoyed my week off and it’s sad how incredibly fast it went by. i don’t even really remember much of anything.
yesterday just got totally lost in space… i remember that i took 2 ativan (something i’m recently legally prescribed, no funny business) and passed out during the second season DVD of “The Hills” and someone from this place i applied to tried to call me and i didn’t recognize the number, but i should’ve answered it anyway ugh. now they’re not responding to me. they are a sketchy company in overland park, anyway.
i’ve got too much life left in me to drive every day to a job in overland park. truthfully.
“The Haunted Man” is growing on me. i knew it would, but it’s still a bit flat no matter what. it’s chilly and cold today. usually my favorite kind of weather for clothes, but i am wearing my oversized frump-fest University of Minnesota-Duluth hoodie which i don’t know why i continue to wear. because every time i do i feel really ugly and gross. but it’s actually an artifact from this guy i fucked in minneapolis this summer. he gave it to me as a parting gift, i suppose. apparently that is the school he attends, or did, or whatever.
of course other things have occurred but, yes, my life has become like some weird mixture of young adult-bret easton ellis novel-circa “girls” in manhattan with lena dunham as one of the voices in my head.
i’m happy to see that i’ve still got my photoshop skills intact. i really don’t think i’m half-bad with image manipulation… you can tell my style pays major homage to like the circa-2005 internet when everyone was obsessed with downloading/making brushes and not providing credit to where they got their images from. and they steal all the coding to make a site for it, haha. ohh man.
chug a diet coke, pick out a black jacket, head down the road & just turn off your brain.